Song - “Soliloquy”

(background vocals:)
(Stop acting like you know me [know me]..)
(To you I’m just a trophy [trophy]..)


Verse 1
I used to dream about the old me, and I told me
that one day you’ll turn down, and turn around and live holy

Then the old me laughed back, and he said, “Okay but I’m cool”
Then he said, “Chill out with that homicide, cause you killin my mood”

He said, “I’m livin la vida. No, it’s not Loco, but Yolo”
Then I tried to tell him bout the Great DOCTOR.. He said, “No BEATS, but I’m SOLO”

Then he start SNAPPING like PHOTO. He said, “My story, you don’t know”
Then I told myself, “Man, yes I do cause I was you, so bruh hold on”

I started to give me the Word.. like auto-text
But everything I spoke to me went in one ear and out the next

I’m like, “Why you iggin? I’m trying to give you this non-fiction..
..and listen close is in your interest. So, tighten up; time’s slippin”



Chorus
Stop acting like you know me
Like you truly want my soul clean

To you I’m just a trophy
You win me over for yourself, then you put me up on that shelf
(so you)

Talking to yourself (Soliloquy)
But I’m somebody else (that you pretend to be)

Why don’t you get to learn me? ..and quit tryina discern me
You’re talking to yourself (Soliloquy)



Verse 2
So there I stood.. Trying to talk sense into myself
Then gradually, I actually recalled how my path to salvation felt
(how’d it feel)

It was hard for me. And as I sat there reminiscing..
I zoned out.. Then I zoned in.. And the old me was in mid-sentence..
(Like)

“And bruh, as a matter-of-fact, if you claim you been where I’m at..
..then why you actin as if I’m trippin? ..like you don’t know the weight on my back?..

...like you ain’t know that I was blind? ...and that I don’t understand your lingo?
...like you can just give me the LETTER ...and I start shoutin like BINGO!..

Embarrassing! The future me is so arrogant!
You just see me as an allergy, then here you come with your Claritin..

Well go ahead; share it then. Spit the Gospel; let me hear it!
But you, of all folks, should already know that without the Spirit, I don't comprehend it..”


(Repeat Chorus)


Verse 3
When I awoke.. The revelation..it quickly hit me:
I cain’t shove the Word down they throat, then expect conversion. Lord forgive me!

How can I be a light with no compassion and no relation?
God reached me through folks that I knew: that's family, friends, and a close acquaintance
(Uh)

Through time & patience, observation, and conversation
And loving me despite all my flaws. Where sin abounded, he threw grace in

And when he saved me, erased the filth, and made the new me..
..He ain't need him a SKETCH PAD, but with his lovingkindness he DREW me

And that’s the truth.. Now I see clearly what I have to do:
Evade the evil.. Engage the people.. And walk alongside them as living proof
(Proof of what?)

...Of what God can do. So, to put it Simply
Ima just do my best to love 'em. And that will be my ministry.


Chorus Repeats